Birthday Blues

So today, on my way to work, I decided that I'm going to try to make it a tradition to write a post the day before my birthday... every year.  So I guess here it goes-

Its my birthday tomorrow!! And although the parties are dying down and a birthday seems like any other day- I'm so excited.  I'm excited to look back over the last year of my life and see how far I've come and if its OK with everyone that I say this: I think I've come pretty damn far.  Sorry but that's the only way to say it.  I have changed my life and I am happy for Derek to show me how to do that.  If I was still where I was last year I would be hanging out with the wrong crowd, doing stupid things and getting myself in trouble.  Because even if you aren't doing the stupid things your friends are: You will still get caught.  And you will still get in trouble.  Guilty or not.  Trust me I learned my lesson on that one.

I've just had the best year ever and I feel like it can only go up from here.  Derek and all of his 'problems' are being sorted out finally and Monday everything will go back to normal.  And even though I chose not to talk about it because I feel like Derek's personal life is between us and our friends/family, I am so happy things are working out.  He is amazing and we both learned a very valuable lesson from everything he has gone through.  Lets just say that one step forward in the right direction is happening now!

A lot of things have changed in the past month even.  Derek has been working nights, and it sucks.  Bre is just as random and lovable as ever.  Currently we've been looking for a new apartment (2 or 3 bedroom so if anyone knows of some let me know!!) We are also trying to scope out a 3rd, responsible and nice roommate.  No one can replace our Lindsee Jill but she is moving to Colorado next month to be closer to her boyfriend.  I'm going to miss the crap out of her but I'm so excited for her to go there and start their life together! Congrats Linds!  We've been hanging out lots more with Sabre and her little girl Zailee and I can't believe little Zai is almost a year old, crazy stuff!  My little puppy is almost 2.  She will be 2 years old on July 24th and I can't believe I've had her for that long.  I also am trying to convince her to turn human so I can find a nice apartment easier.  No one wants pets in the apartment (which I understand why) but she is NOT a dog, she has more personality then most people I know.  But I don't think a landlord will look at it like that.  Shucks.

I'm sad that lots of things are going to change after this summer is over, but I'm so excited to start new adventures with Derek.  I'm also excited that my birthday is tomorrow. Finally my parents can stop making fun of me because I'm still a teenager.  And also, finally when I tell people I'm 20 it wont be a lie!  I feel like when I tell people my age they are thinking, "Wow you and Derek are talking about getting married and you are that young?" So usually I round up.  Being a year older is only cool for about 2 months, then all my friends start having their birthdays again and I'm back to being the youngest.  Its rough. I'll write again about the birthday adventures.  I'm super stoked for girls dinner tonight and then Callaways tomorrow!  Love you all!